A letter to my son on his first birthday [How to be an Original]
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Dear Jesse,
Congratulations on your first birthday!
I remember that night a year ago very vividly, when you came knocking at the door in the middle of the night and over 5 weeks early. I guess you were ready to step into this world and move ahead, as you do so powerfully since that day.
The kind of love you awakened in me took me by surprise. It’s not more or better than other love, only different. Different from the way I love your mom, different from the way I love my parents, brothers and sister and different from the way I love life. It has enriched my life.
And with that love comes a full range of other emotions. I have experienced feelings of helplessness when you were in the incubator in the early weeks, feelings of despair when you were crying relentlessly in the early months. Feelings of pity when you were in pain from what we now know were food allergies and feelings of insecurity about all the new aspects of life that being a parent brings with it. They too have enriched my life.
| A new beginning, a radiant life A blank book, yet unwritten And nobody can reveal How you’ll fill the pages It’s going to be your story We’re at your side, reading along text on birth announcement card (translated from Dutch) |
You have inspired me by just being you. The relentless effort you put into discovering the world and developing your skills in all its tiny variations have astounded me more than once. It makes me wonder why and when we lose the ambition and energy to be so vigorous in developing ourselves.
You have also awakened another level of being me. You made me think about life in a different perspective. You made me think about life beyond my own and its consequences, this still has me puzzled in many wonderful ways.
Your being here has also deepened my love for your mother. I can see her love for you and her devotion to be the best mom she can. It fills me with love and warmth to see you two together, playing together and sharing love and fun.
Know that I’ll be here for you on your path through this thing called life. You can count on me for being there when you need support in all its subtle appearances. A hand to help you when you attempt your first steps, a hand to catch you in case you might fall, attempting another audacious effort at something you don’t master (yet).
Keep on filling the pages of your book in your unique way, I’ll be reading along and helping you along the way.
Thank you for being your beautiful you. I love you.
Your papa
Original post here: Lodewijkvdb
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